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I had school today! It was so boring! I slept for 5 minutes in math class. I’m never going to get math anyways might as well make use of my time ehh? School was school. I got teases though. I thought it was pick on Erica day. Ashley jumped on me when I came to school this morning. I love that girl. I saw nana today. I missed that kid. Tomorrow we have a fun filled assembly! Oh joy. Sitting in the hott sun for an hour.

I’m making my move. Hahahaha. Yeah, like a move will be made!

SAXON IS GANGSTA! Don’t mess with her. She’s Mexican. She can say the N word.

“So, did she come here with you?”

“No, no, but if my dad doesn’t have a problem, she can come home with me.”

I don’t want to be bitter anymore. I want to be happy. I want my mom and dad to think that I am a good child and that I will please them. I want them to say yeah, that’s my daughter and not look at me in shame. I want my mom and dad to say I love you and really mean it. I want all of these things and yet it’s going to take all that I have to get them again. I’m drowning here and they don’t even notice. I need help! I want someone to be here with me. I want my parent’s trust and their love back. I’m selfish and I don’t deserve anything good that anyone has to say about me. It’s your entire fault you asshole! I love you with all of my heart. I will always be here for you. But you have to stop all of your stupid mistakes. I want to be loved again.

I have friends but I want one to say I love you and mean it. That word has gone around a lot and we say it all of the time, but do you honestly mean those three words?

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march 30, 2003

had a great day today. ended break very well. linsey and lina are too cool i tell ya! i got a camera kids! tomorrow, pictures. fun times. spring break was awsome i tell ya. i miss nana! O BUILDING CREW IS BACK BRAH! school tomorrow. BLAH!

I AM NOT OBSSESED WITH MATTTAM! well maybe just a little.

Things seem to be getting a little worse now. Just because of his stupid mistake this has to happen. I love him with all of my heart but sometimes I don’t know what to do anymore. He screwed things up for himself and for others. I just want to punch him and shake him and tell him you’re a dumbass! I’ll be praying for him and hope that his goals and where he goes is in his best interest and in other’s as well.

Two more days of spring break left! I better make good use of it before it’s over. Anyone want to cheel with me? Call me up kids, we can go cruise.

Did I mention that I totally love Angelina? She is seriously awesome. I am so glad I met her. Camp was the best thing ever! She’s one of my best friends now. My hott mama I tell ya. How you doin?

My dad wants me to go to thearapy. WHAT THE HELL?! they say i never listen to them. I'm a teenager, what more is there to do? Haha. I think it's funny.

 herlipsdestroy: ERICA the WANNABE mexican gangsta

^ she's a gangsta like whoa! it's a date dahling. ^

Auto response from hUmPaThUmPa:  im taking a shit

^ Awesome ehh ^

I had a wonderful night and day.  I hung out with lina (Angabelina) and linsey (AwaitingPatience). They are now my home dawgs.  I had fun. Drove around with lina. Went to Ross and bought some chucks, oh yeah. Went to her house and then linsey came. Rented jackass the movie. That movie is the best movie ever. We started chatting. I think linsey had more fun then us. Her and her lesbian lover. Did I mention she had a 12-year-old lover too? Haha. I love you linsey. Then went to north shore. And we TRIED to pick up guys. We had no such luck. Lina is a little pimp. I’m white so I am working on it. We had fun times.  We listened to radio Disney too. We are too cool I tell ya.

I miss my camping whore. Next time we go camping, you and I bebe.

I’m sad now because I am making all of these great new friends and they are going to graduate this year! Dammit!

hUmPaThUmPa: just wanted to say hi before I leave cause I missed you yesterday

hUmPaThUmPa: haha

^ So cute yeah. Haha. I luff him. ^

I NEED SOME O BUILDING! i miss my favorite ladies. nana, next time we will cheeel!